Kazegetsu Hotaru

ok so im deciding to post today because well i have run out of other things to do since i am currently unable to talk and have been like this since tuesday. so anyways as some of you know i had my tonsils out tuesday morning fun stuff really they knocked me out at 930am finished the procedure at like 10am and then i stayed knocked out to a little after 12, 1230ish. and since then the whole talking thing not that easy or comfortable. i thought that this "week off" would be so bad because then i would have time to paint up some space marine and witch hunter models i been meaning to get to, oh yeah by the way for all of you who dont know i picked up warhammer 40k as a hobby, long story short i just wanted to paint little people. but unfortunatly the codine (is that spelled right?) has taking away just enough of my cordination that well the only thing i cant seem to do is paint detailed models so that washed out my major plans for this week.
in other news just a few minutews ago i finished my first real meal, cold instant rice, that i have had since tuesday. yup since tuesday i have basically only had about 6 cups nof jello and about 4-6 ice pops total as my only form of food, actually not that bad frankly havent been hungry or anything since im not really doing anything anf the lack of real food has helped me loss a little weight...yay.
well start school tuesday and this looks like my last semester ... finally. and well i guess ill be seeing most of you around soon cause ill be communting to stony so ill be in nassau most of the time which means i might actually get to see all the friends i have seen since like forever which is good.
well till next time yall stay frosty

Your results:
You are Green Lantern

Green Lantern 85% Superman 65% Spider-Man 65% Iron Man 55% Robin 50% Hulk 50% The Flash 45% Catwoman 45% Supergirl 40% Wonder Woman 35% Batman 30%

Hot-headed. You have strong will power and a good imagination.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz


Your results:
You are Mr. Freeze

Mr. Freeze 74% Magneto 73% Dr. Doom 69% Apocalypse 67% Poison Ivy 57% The Joker 55% Juggernaut 53% Lex Luthor 52% Dark Phoenix 48% Riddler 48% Venom 46% Green Goblin 45% Two-Face 45% Kingpin 30% Mystique 29% Catwoman 28%

You are cold and you think everyone else should be also, literally.

Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test


awesome... i dont really agree with all their reasoning but hey i love the lanterns (Rayner and Stewart are the best and anyone who says other wise is wrong! ((just opinion))). and ive always had ummm... cold spot in my heart for freeze. hes seriously one of my favorite villans =).

<td align="center"> Philip --
[noun]:

A real life muppet

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>


anyways happy new year!

well i haven't posted in a whhile and i was really planning on posting a non fick this shit post but well after last night i havce to post this, so sorry for any "emo-ness" that may insue.

yesturday stated out perdy well you know the whole class thing and sleeping instead of studying for shit, all well and good. then while just hanging out in the room there comes a knock on the door to the suite, so i look at the dorr and then decide to get off my lazy ass to see whom it is thinking "dang it the doors open you lazy bastard". and as i reach for the dorr water starts coming in through the door. as in a deluge coming in under and around the fdoor up to my coming in the sides at about up to my waist. so i star confused saying wtf man. and then we open the door and there is a trash can (you know one of those normal sized ones) tiped over infront of our door, which using my mad deduction skills assumed was filled to the brim with water before it got knocked over. some of us attempted to chase the culprits but they werer long gone (bastards). well anyways so our room is soak as is the suite next door (back wash) which i feel bad about because we were the target and those girls don't deserve assholishness affecting their evenings. so anyways several hours later and some meet and greets with the RA'a (yeah they were nice and did their jobs which is cool). we all finally started to get over the bit and decided to get some snack age at the dining hall. o so we come back (me with a delicious icecream sandwhich and chips) and hang for a bit (it is now 3am) and then the fire alarm goes off. "FUCK!" is exclaimed through out the land and we grab our shiate and go a walkings to the outside. a half our later we finally get back in (firefighters had to come and all, freaking some one pulled the alarm). anyways so we get back and things cool down again, i download bleach 103 (just got posted \(^o^)/ ) and start whaching and well 5ish roles around and the blaring echo of the fire alarms rears its head again. so with double the cursing from all (except me i just started laughing) we leave again and we get back to the room around 540am  which sux cause yeah i just found out voltron is on at 530am yesurday and i was looking foward to watching soome giant robot action, and well now we missed half an episode =(. ogh and the bleach episode ending was lame.
so that was the night and now im awake and missing my first class. but the good news is that maitainace showed up and they are wet vac the room trying to cleam up the place yay! and yeah i think im gonna get food b4 lab and then maybe finish  my cheat sheat for my AMS (statisitcs class) this evening which im totally not ready for for well obvious reasons. than again i was probably not gonna study to much anyways but well lets not talk about that. =)
well thats all for now, maybe a less annoyed post to come later.


Good Eve.

You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already. In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth. Buddhism 79% Paganism 79% agnosticism 79% Islam 71% Judaism 67% Satanism 54% Christianity 54% atheism 50% Hinduism 33% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

ok well stealing idea from matt, and this time now that i know finally how to post freakin' pics on lj  it'll work so here we go.
i guess i'll just copy him near verbatum:
Hello If you are a regular on my LJ I liike to hear form you. Post in a comment which Anime Character (this is anime, manga, and videogames if there anime like.. or something). that when you see them you instinly are reminded of me, and i will do the same for those who comment.

and now i will post the person that reminds me most of me, well the one i can think up off the top of my head



though ok thats too cool this is more me :



=Þ anyways thats all for now.
good eve.

EDIT 1: ok hopefully it will work now. dont know what happened worked fine yesturday...guess thats what you get for using the image insert thingy instead of just putting in the html codes... oh well sry.

well first i would just like to say the birthday was fun. it was cool seeing people again =). we must do that more often. any ways yeah but on to the post.

it is now october 8th and i am 22 (don't tell anyone). i am in what will hopefully be my last year of college and the most important day of my life. the one that will determine basically the rest of my life is this saturday. yup thats right the 14th of october is the day i get my MCAT scores back. its only been 60 days since the exam but its felt like 5 years but now it all comes down to this and well i couldn't be more nervous. but as catherine fortune cookie said the other day "A bold attempt is half of success." well i guess this was my bold attempt lets just hope the other half pulls through.
oh and my fortune cookie was wierd, "You find you know things without being told." ok i think the bloody thing just called me a witch, or a superhero either its usually true and if im right this time well then lets not talk about it.

"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."

anyways i think i might acctualy study tonight so till next time.
i draw the back of Kilazy

edit 1: 6:45am stayed up all night playingmagic. class at 830am not gonna go to sleep, will go to class cause we should be getting our exam back, and then i think im skipping everything else to sleep. anyways yeah totally won the draft tonight... barely  serra avenger is the mother fing house. man i like drafting too much =). anyways later

ok quick post.
first went to magic pre release for time spiral. was really fun i went 3 and 1 and finished 11th over all in my group (which was about 43 ppl) not bad for my first pre release.

any ways after that just been schooling it. kinda miss everybody thats um well not here at stonybrook... so well pretty much every one.
oh and before i go this is a must click ummm hyperlink. its hilarious.
um this thing should work  =).

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8563337315465387385&q=white+and+nerdy

till next time.

well it kinda finally hit me.
i don't have a costume for halloween.
which if you dont know me means bad things
i love halloween and i love costumes and well it is my favorite holiday and i missed it last year cause of school which really pissed me off, and there is no way im missing it this year... you'd have to kill me and even then i would show up as a vampire (well a ghost wearing a vampire costume i mean come on i can't go as a ghost if I am one! duh).
anyways whats worse is that i can't even think of what to do i got nothing my mind is blank =(.
so on that note any one got suggersttions that are at least doable?
oh and is any one interested in coming to the city for the parade on halloween its the best =).

anyways till next time
beware the furmeous bandersnatch.

EDIT: 1:58 am- just finished episode 58 of Bleach thats um 27 episodes in one day... yikes that good stuff

well it has been one week since my return to the most hallowed fgrounds of stony brook. and what can i say. except im so glad i have internet back and im not at home. but im deeply sadened by the fact that i have basically no one to hang out with here. my suite mates are nice enough, buit i don't really know them too well same goes for the roommate of course. the suite is a constant buzz of people moving in and out (most of whom i have no idea who are). but thats fine it is an interesting atmosphere. other than that been hang with the magic group, did the first FNM (friday night magic) of the year went 3 and 2 with sizzit tron (thats a deck if you didn't know and well i dont really weant to explain it so =Þ). um did some drafting too, been getting better still make some stupid mistakes though.
class has well been class. i go i get bored i fall asleep i leave thats about it. eco will hopefully be interesting. still looking for a job. been wanting to get inot warhammer 40k also, mostly just to paint models cause i used to like doing that as a kid.
oh and i final have sucummb to peer preasure, it is quite terrible but its true. i started watching bleach. and it freaking rules! if you havent watched any of it yet go now. i am up to episode 31 and i started watching 2 days ago. and i plan to watch like 3 to 6 more episodes tonight.

anyways just miss hanging with people.
and i miss catherine as usual but i guess that just goes with out saying.
i dont think my heart will let the ship sail. oh well but what can you do.
i think i will try to continue my quest for the kum do club around here. i know it exists i just dont know where. and i really want some kinda physically activity. oh and of course i have an exam on my b day. so it looks like the friday after im gonnna hang at stony and get sloshed with jessie (seeing as he and i have the same birth day we might as well celebrate it at the same time.) all comers welcome of course. anyways i think im gonna go now before peopel return tyo the room and i must forgo my normal privacy.
good eve

ok so i had to take it.. even though im not a huge fan or anything i just love me some random quizes =)!

You scored as Rock Lee. You are Rock Lee, the genius of hard work. You believe that anything can be achieved through hard work. You can?t be the best at everything, so you have decided to master one skill better than anyone. Feeling constant need to prove yourself, you tend to be competitive and a little hard for yourself. </td> Rock Lee 81% Shikamaru 75% Hinata 75% Kakashi 63% Iruka 63% Sasuke 56% Neji 56% TenTen 50% Genma 44% Naruto 31% Which Naruto ninja are you most like? created with QuizFarm.com

ha ha at least i got a character i know from the show AND like. actually one of my favorite characters too cool. im just glad i didn't get naruto.... no one wants to be naruto.
real updates to come.
same ferret time
same ferret channel
and as always
so long
and thanks
for all
the fish

annoyed at well my opinion a lack of a cool evil overlord being i took the test again changing some of my answers to allow more of a sadistic flare and here it is.

Vladimir Harkonnen 75% Evil, 55% Intelligence, 80% Common Sense

The Baron Vladimir Harkonnen is the ruthless, cunning, and grossly overweight head of House Harkonnen. Under his leadership, House Harkonnen gained enormous amounts of wealth and power, the most important of which is mining rights on the desert world of Arrakis, which is probably the most lucrative industry potentially available among any of the Great Houses. For it is upon Arrakis that Melange -- Spice -- is mined and processed for distribution to the entire galaxy. The Baron, being the ever-scheming individual, devised a plan that saw control of Arrakis transferred to House Atredies as part of a plot between the Baron and the then-current Emperor, both of whom sought to diminish the influence and power of the Atredies line. The scheme, of course, ended in abject failure and ultimately led to the death of the Baron, the fall of the Emperor, and a shift in galactic politics down a radically different path under the rule of Muad'dib. Harkonnen earns high marks in evilness due to his iron-fisted management of House Harkonnen and Arrakis. He scores moderately in intelligence for his cunning nature and use of available resources, as well as high marks in common sense for his strategies in various political schemes. Quote: Never become more popular than the boss, unless you intend to sack him. Source of Overlord: Dune

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Evil You scored higher than 99% on Intelligence You scored higher than 99% on Common Sense

Link: The Evil Overlord Test written by veqhturi on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

HAHA! the Floating fat man himself!
always been a fan of his work.. wheels with in wheels and all that. just dont get why he is rated so low on intelect.. frankly he was one smart customer, but it seems they decided that his evil plots are common sense a flaw in the sytem imo.

--in other news mcats were hard. took the test in 6hrs (skipped all the breaks and just powered through it).... well at least that is over.
i am exhausted. well good eve to you all

so now down to the wire sorry for all the posts.
but here are my fortune cookie fortunes for today. i like them so i have put them here
1. Hold fast to dreams for if dreams die, life is like a broken-winged bird that cannot fly.
2. Romance awaits you.

oh and my lucky numbers are;
46,7,12,38,36,5
5,17,33,27,49,8
duck- YA-zi
friend- Peng-you <--this total sounds like a curse to me. =Þ

well good eve to you all.

well then it is now 6:09pm which means i have about 13 hours and 51 minutes before the MCAT. i am scared... so scared im looking over some review stuff and i realised i don't have a clue about electostatics or bloody dipoles, and its been 5 years since ive done some of the chemistry. i dont thinik this is going to go too well. oh well i need to get out of her for a little tonight. and i could use a hug (insert sad puppy/kitty face here). by the Golden Throne im screwed on this one. all i can do is what i always do when i know im going to loss. gather up my things make sure my tie is neet, stand up straight and just walk head long into imminent destruction and give it hell, in other words go down fighting. i may loss but i'll hurt that inanimate objects ego...ummm yeah. lets just go with that.

so in closing i will say the only prayer i think that matters, the only one i have ever cared to remember, and the only one i have ever meant when i have said it.
"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."

may the force be with us all, and may the mcat's "blade" chip and shatter.

-13hours 35minutes-

Nom Anor 40% Evil, 80% Intelligence, 60% Common Sense

Nom Anor is a member of the intendant caste of the Yuuzhan Vong, a brutal, warrior-based alien society that despises all lifeless forms of technology. In planning for their invasion of a galaxy far, far away, the Yuuzhan vong sent Nom Anor in as a pre-emptive strike to destabilize various world governments and sow the seeds of chaos. Being both a manipulator and master of covert tactics allowed Nom Anor to accomplish much of his task before the primary forces of the Yuuzhan Vong arrived, although he did have some mixed results in some of his plans. Cunning and crafty by nature, Nom Anor earns moderate marks in evilness and a high score in intelligence. However, some of his mistakes were avoidable if he had simply thought them through, leading to a moderate score for common sense. Quote: Does the warmaster truly wish a disquisition upon the New Republic's perverse system of government? It has to do with a bizarre concept called democracy, in which ruling power is given to whoever is most skillful at directing the herd instincts of the largest masses of their most ignorant citizens. Source of Overlord: Star Wars: New Jedi Order Series (Books)

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Evil You scored higher than 99% on Intelligence You scored higher than 99% on Common Sense

Link: The Evil Overlord Test written by veqhturi on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

so im not the evilest BUT i will still blow your planet up with my superior intelect. and go figure i get a starwars thing... then again i should check if all the results are star wars

anywho just wanted to post this cause supervillians are cool.

good eve

Well then time for coherant post number 2 (hopefully). today i will tackle a part of my psyche, i guess. this is something i have been mulling all day to write. and i know it will not come out quite right here but well on we go.
we will start with several statments.
-first: as a child i developed part of my imagination in a way few really do. you see i have always been antisocial and have spent much of my time by my self all my life so i started creating people to talk toi in my head, yes you might say these were imaginary friends. but i went a step further, i copied people real people i knew as objectively as possible. this actually i found when used correctly let me predict how people would react to different cercumstances with uncanny exactness. unfortunatly i have not used this tool for some time, but its pieces are still in my mind. and this mechanism is key to most of my self exploration.
- second: i love catherine and that part of me has come to terms with her breaking up with me and not being as signifigant in my life anymore.
-finally: i am obsessed with catherine, and that part of me will not let her out of my head. which most unfortuantly makes me a little crazy lately.

these are all important because some time ago i went about pondering whether or not i could get over catherine, or further and more importantly if i could care about some one else more. so with much concntration i basically made the "perfect girl" with all her traits, idosyncrasies and flaws (we like people for their good qualities, we love them for there flaws therefore flaws are as essential as good qualities in this experiment). and i feel i made a pretty realistic person whom actually though imaginary i was able to attribute emotional care to (like riker in that episode of tng with the hologram lady... sorry for that referance bvut i forgot to mention that this little world in my head is very real to me and can actually affect me mentally just to clarify.. oh and im not crazy damn it).
now the results of this test were quite interseting, no matter how much i could care for the other person catheruine always came first. no matter what i would (and still will) drop everything in a second if catherine really needs me. so i concluded that no one could ever compare to her and that well seemed true till as of late.

this starts with me not seeing catherine for about two weeks, which has become a norm. her, and i always haveing conflicting schedules and then her going away for the week. and well you see i think of her every day always and over the last part of her vactation some one actually also poped into y head. i actually thought of some one else at the very least the same amount as i thought about catherine. so of course this revalation made me reavaluate the previous test adding a more real subject to the process. and well it actually turned up results that are quite unexpected.

so this leaves me with many quandries. and well now that catherine is back to be truthfull i still think of this other person, which well makes me rule out lonelyness to an extent as for the reason for being interestedin this person.

but further to this what do i do now? the unfortunate answer is nothing. i am alsways the observer never the ummm observed. first off though i do find this person interesting i dont know her very well and well frankly it probably wouldn't work out that great but i could be wrong. but i know it wouldnt work out great right now simply because i don't want to even consider dragging someone else into this crazy drama that i have turned my life into (besides this person also probably has no interwest in me.)
but i thank that person because they helped me realise that there are still possisibilities that i have not yet explored and who know what will come of them.

well anyways just kinda wanted to say all of that for some reason.
and well if you didn't get the message
so long and thanks for all the fish

EDIT 1: by the by im an idiot and i dont know how to add cuts to entires so can some one please tell me. arigato gozimasu

so i have been sitting and looking at my lj for like the past week just wanting to write something but well just at a loss for words. so of course i will now just type aimlessly to the empty void that is my usually auidience (note. dont feel like spell checking so sorry for spelling errors).
any ways last sunday was cool went to the ren fair in tuxedo with matt jess george and stan. good day.
on that note no one will agree with me (except catherine) that if pirates still well pirated they would use minivans... i wouild explain more but im lazy.
the real reason for this post though is really im just getting alittle freaked out. down to just the last few days before the mcat. and i am not ready. i dont think i can pass this thing. but well only time will tell. and i guess i can always take it a second tiome. but i just want to do well this time and get the fuck out of college.
lol omg sorry venture brothers good stuff. i havent really watched any tv this summer. well except when ppl are over just wierd and unrelated.

i want to end this with a stupid quiz but i have run out of those. =(
i need to get out of this basement.
ever notice that a lot of these posts degenerate into me just writing a couple of random stupid thoughts at the end?
lets not to that this time. so to end this i will leave a thought a quote that i have been dwelling on. i realized that well ive beased so much of my out look on this simple phrase and that frankly makes no sense with out an explaination. which, i of course will not put here for i like to keep the motivations of my mind some what secret. if you would like to knwo the story for some reason ask me in person and i will probably not tell you, and its really not that impressive a story any ways. well i digress. so i leave with the words of wisdom that have guided me for so long, "You think of the hand, but not of the foot."
and thats all for me, good eve.

Find your Celestial Choir

heh go figure

and next:
1. Elaborate on your default icon.
it is a piece of art from magic the gathering. more specifically it is the art for the spell quicken created by Aleksi Briclot. i think its a beautiful piece and shows my love of magic both the game and the possible thing "A skilled Izzet chronarch can carry out an epic vendetta between the fall of one hourglass grain and the next." i love being a mage

2. What's your current relationship status?
most unfortunatlty and against my wishes single. but i can dream

3. Ever have a near-death experience?
car accident last tuesday... well that wasnt really too bad. so umm yeah the time i put a knife an inch and a half into my arm when i was sixteen... i missed the major vein and artery both by about a centimeter. if i hit one. based on response time of help i probably would have bleed to death in about 5 to 10 minutes which was way befor help arrived, i think that counts.

4. Name an obvious quality you have.
I'm smarter than you... j/k.... ummm yeah humility i guess, but wouldnt just saying im humble negate me being humble??? oh well

5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
the second intro fma theme, um fuzzy and return to kali by spider nick and the mad dogs, and ummm i think thats it

6. Any celebrity you would marry?
is catherine a celebrity yet?... no? then no there is no celebrity that i would marry

7. Who will cut and paste this first?
dont know dont care (no offense)

8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
strangly enough yes...

9. Do you wear a watch? What kind?
i used to.. catherine gave it to me.. it broke and then i lost it before i could get it repaired =(

10. Do you have anything pierced?
no

11. Do you have any tattoos?
at the moment no

12. Do you like pain?
some one once said life is pain. and i like life so i guess so... also some else once said "pain is an illusion.... that really really hurts"
but seriously pain lets on know they are alive. too much sucks but a little helps you find your boundries so that you can surpass them

13. Do you like to shop?
occansionally... usually just for books and such

14. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
tow truck or food

15. What was the last thing you paid for with your credit/debit card?
catherine's b day present (yay on line shopping!)

16. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
catherine, the power is out at her house by the way

17. What is on your desktop background?
currently just changed it to Isperia the Inscrutable (magic card art) plan on changing again soon i think the best one was the catherine one. but well i started feeling like a stalker with that one up... thats pretty much the only reason i changed it. and before that the longest running background was a human transmutation circle (fma rules)

18. What is the background on your cell phone?
colory stuff

19. Do you like redheads?
sure why not

20. Do you know any twins?
nope. used to

21. Do you have any weird relatives?
ROFLMAO..... do i have to answer this?

22. What was the last movie you watched?
Last Samurai (good movie)

23. What was the last book you read?
reading Eisenthorn (warhammer 40k book, perdy good too). and an mcat rep book now and then.... on and read shades children by garth nix soooooo awesome! read it or die


---hey just 18 days till E-day may god have mercy on my mind.----
they say the sword is the samurai's soul
well then let me show you my scalpel
... pee wee scares me...

omg you must watch this!
http://www.scifi.com/amazingscrewonhead/

for "as i always say all intelegent people should be creamated for matters of public saftey."

that is all
post to come soon
summer sux
hope yours doesnt all you out there in internet land

hey well the semester is over and im am just sitting at homedoing nothing for the next 3 to 8 days before i start school and work again. anyways

i would like to say that over the past few weeks or frankliy probably this whole semester i have been an ass to most of my friends in one way or another. and i would like to say im sorry, i dont know whats wrong with me and it just sucks that i have possible hurt any of my friends. some of the things i did really weren't my fault (most were) but that doesn't matter now. either way i have either let down. dissapointed or plain pissed off most people i know. and to all of i am sorry. i will make it up to you some how.

in other news i stayed in bed to 545pm today which was awesome. that is my record for not getting up. but that might be partially due to the fact that i havent been able to sleep the past couple of days (or i didnt fall asleep till 6 or 7 am this morning/ last night).
anyways thats all for now. if any one is a round i am free today saturday and sunday if they want to hang out. just call me or comment on here or something. well then laters to you all.